vent

I don't feel attractive. At all.
No reassurance. No compassion.
Feel like a burden. Would like to be told I'm not.
Feel like a failure, just hear about how I need to get back out there
Worry constantly about things. CONSTANTLY. future, money, choices I've made, my weight.....
Feel like crap. Feel ugly, stupid, not worth it. I feel like my feelings are a burden to him. Which makes me feel like shit about feeling feelings. Instead, I bottle them up and try to let them go.

I want that look that in his eye that makes him go crazy for me. I want to feel pretty and not ashamed of my body. I want to be able to say a feeling and not have him "sigh". I want to be able to discuss a thought and not have it turn into a fight. This is not healthy right now.


Sex is becoming unbearable almost.... I feel like I'm losing control of the situation, which brings back bad memories.

I want to feel worth it again.

This bout of crappiness came out of no where.

help.